i love my best friend.

for always and forever.
she is really the only person i trust.
and everyone else shows me a reason why i should trust her.
julia michelle lopez;
most real girl ever.

sept 9th

hope you get satisfaction in being just another number.
just another boy i spent a night with.
GOOD FOR YOU.

sept 4th

incoming call.

broken hearttt
12:30 am
Aug 30, 2009
05:23





:/

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played.

< \ 3

i guess i shouldnt complain

but i do it anyways

seeing you around makes me wanna remind time

and stop myself from ever meeting you

you are by far the most annoying

stupid & disrespectful boy ever.

i will go out of my way NOT to talk to you

and how about you do the same?

but as for you, i'd do anything to talk to you

and this could be the start

of something beautiful

<3

no solution.

And it all boils down to one quotable phrase...

"If you love something, give it away."

by the way

im the most secret jealous person

you'll ever met.

like i'll act like i dont care or whatever

but on the inside i'm

pissed angry sad crushed

whatever.

you doing what you did is the saddest thing

do you know what it feels like to be walked out on?

i do

and it's straight up bullshit.

shoot me?

hahha teeth fetish? perhaps :)

you make me really happy.

<3

you answered a restricted call.

honestly,

if i had a tigger

it would have been pulled tonight.

stabb in the god damn heart.

thats the truth.

i just dont care anymore.

out of town. out of sight. out of heart. thats all i'm going to say. i'm in an extremely shitty mood and i don't feel that will change anytime soon. honestly, i hate being lonely anymore. this is getting annoying and i've never felt this feeling. plus i'm nervous for the stupidest of reasons. gosh something needs to change before i go insane. i dont have a strand of humor right now. fuuuuuuuuck this.

its been too many years i guess.

im aware of the games you play

and you may think you play them well

but just wait until i play them better.

ive finally set in my mind

that i'm honestly

better off without you.

brass knuckles can't knock me out,

the way you do.

but you know what,

fuck off.

everything you do makes me smile.

and it sucks

interesting day i must admit.

falling falling falling.
and i can't figure out how to stop myself anymore.
it's kinda funny how my heart works.
it looks for disappointment even when my brain tries to stop it.
but i guess i'll never learn.
all i know is i want you really bad,
your like this chase as of right now.
and honestly i don't want to chase anyone,
i wish you'd make this easy.
but perhaps you are and i just can't see it anymore.
everything you do leaves me speechless.
there's your first clue.
you know who you are.
your beautiful.
<3

everything i write is about boys.

hahaha

i've come to realize

the only topics i feel comfortable enough

sharing about are boys

but i'm a poor writer,

to explain in depth the aspects of my life

that's take one too many blog posts

for now i'll talk about nameless boys.

have you ever gone a year without talking to someone

and then you just call them

it's funny how much their voice, attutide,

and the way they view the world change

i don't know whether i miss you

or i hate you.

either way i can't stop thinking about you

i love how the concept of you & me is so old

but so new and fresh

alittle shameless flirting never killed anyone

perhaps.

hey! thanks for letting me down.

why would i think this time would be any different?

because it's not

don't put the blame on me when the change is on you

i love you, i've spilled that secret more then once

but i guess i'm not the little girl you used to know

i've grown, not changed

that's something you should have learned a long time ago

ignore me, hate me, or miss me with everything you have

thats all on you beautiful.

i miss you dearest.

it's a sad thing when you can't tell someone

"go home."

because their home is hours away from where they want to be.

i'm sorry. you don't deserve this.

unlock your sadness.

i've never felt more needed in my life &

that's what i needed.

hey nicole, welcome to perfection.

it's a bumpy road, life is.

filled with hopes, dreams, aspirations

actually it's filled with velleities.

and you are mine.

welcome to hell nicole.