its been too many years i guess.

im aware of the games you play

and you may think you play them well

but just wait until i play them better.

ive finally set in my mind

that i'm honestly

better off without you.

brass knuckles can't knock me out,

the way you do.

but you know what,

fuck off.

everything you do makes me smile.

and it sucks

interesting day i must admit.

falling falling falling.
and i can't figure out how to stop myself anymore.
it's kinda funny how my heart works.
it looks for disappointment even when my brain tries to stop it.
but i guess i'll never learn.
all i know is i want you really bad,
your like this chase as of right now.
and honestly i don't want to chase anyone,
i wish you'd make this easy.
but perhaps you are and i just can't see it anymore.
everything you do leaves me speechless.
there's your first clue.
you know who you are.
your beautiful.
<3

everything i write is about boys.

hahaha

i've come to realize

the only topics i feel comfortable enough

sharing about are boys

but i'm a poor writer,

to explain in depth the aspects of my life

that's take one too many blog posts

for now i'll talk about nameless boys.

have you ever gone a year without talking to someone

and then you just call them

it's funny how much their voice, attutide,

and the way they view the world change

i don't know whether i miss you

or i hate you.

either way i can't stop thinking about you

i love how the concept of you & me is so old

but so new and fresh

alittle shameless flirting never killed anyone

perhaps.

hey! thanks for letting me down.

why would i think this time would be any different?

because it's not

don't put the blame on me when the change is on you

i love you, i've spilled that secret more then once

but i guess i'm not the little girl you used to know

i've grown, not changed

that's something you should have learned a long time ago

ignore me, hate me, or miss me with everything you have

thats all on you beautiful.

i miss you dearest.

it's a sad thing when you can't tell someone

"go home."

because their home is hours away from where they want to be.

i'm sorry. you don't deserve this.

unlock your sadness.

i've never felt more needed in my life &

that's what i needed.

hey nicole, welcome to perfection.

it's a bumpy road, life is.

filled with hopes, dreams, aspirations

actually it's filled with velleities.

and you are mine.

welcome to hell nicole.